Thank you guys for stepping up and running this. I don't think I need
to explain but I do want
to explain why I bowed out this year.
It's not because of the name change although that was a very small part of it. It would be extremely petty of me if that were the only reason. No, it was way more than that.
This has been a tough year. Not just for me either as I'm sure everyone else has had their fair share of hardship in 2020. I'm sorry that I didn't reach out earlier to ask if anyone wanted to do it instead of me but I kept going back and forth with myself about whether or not to do it. Probably should have decided earlier that I wasn't going to do it or just gone ahead and done it.
Thing is that it has been exceptionally rough for me because on top of the virus I am also living in one of the protest hot spots. We have been having near daily riots (not protests, I know the difference) that have resulted in my city looking like a war zone. We have also been experiencing a spike in violence that has resulted in dozens of homicides, arson sprees and just general unpleasantness.
Not to mention that it still isn't 100% certain that the season will go forward without any interruptions or even finish for that matter. Just today I saw a couple of college programs cancelling games because of Covid complications. Hopefully that won't be the case but difficult to foresee.
I also lost one of my sisters a few months ago to a drug overdose and two of my cats were eaten by coyotes in the same month. Personal life has gone to hell because we can't hang out anymore. Colleen and I have been having our problems because we are both going stir crazy being kind of trapped in the house for the most part. I am usually a very upbeat and positive person but with all that has occurred it has been really hard to stay that way.
Combine all of this with the fact that business has been fantastic (not complaining about that at all - rare bright spot!
) I just didn't think that I would have the energy or will to do a good job of it. I definitely should have said something earlier and I sincerely regret that.
I absolutely appreciate you guys for taking it over for now and this past Sunday I was actually way more excited about the season than I thought I might be! Winning helped but even before the game I had some positive thoughts about everything.
Alright, I'm done being a downer. Y'all have fun watching Bengals/Browns tonight! I'll be tuned in.